“How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one’s culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light.” ~ Barry Lopez
I don’t know what to say about this upcoming full moon. Or the eclipse. Or the cardinal square following it. I lack the time and experience to truly express the possibilities, the intensity and the energy. Oh, the energy.
Or the energies. Plural. because there are many of them, swirling. Sun still in Aries, heating us up, lighting the individual spark, the desire for change, for action. But Mars, Aries ruler, still retrograde, pummeling through Libra, fighting his own nature and he seeks balance… and Libra, the full moon goddess of the month, her light of harmony and union totally eclipsed by the sun.. and in the outer skies, the big planets and cardinal signs square off… in an alignment that is overwhelming, frightening and amazing.
I am not an astrologer, so I can’t tell you how you are going to feel. But I can tell you what I feel. and why I opened with the quote, which screamed at me from the pages of a piece I am reading for school. Why the only line that has repeated itself over and over in my head as I ponder this cycle, this lunation.. a whisper amidst the thunder of change and power encircling our planet… “lean into the light.”
I feel overwhelmed. I feel like something has to give. At moments I feel inspired beyond belief and then deflated to nothing. I have seen the cardinal signs come to life in the first rebellion of my teenage Aries step son against his parents and the liberation of my Cancerian infant as he learns to stand. I watch the Capricornian sense of stability falter as the earth grows active under my feet and finally, I see Libra, the Goddess, in her mask of justice, balance and beauty, struggle to shine, despite it all.
I recall back in 2012 an astrologer, not sure which, look at the anxiety over the 2012 prophecies and muse, “2012 has nothing on 2014.” It did not mean much at the time. But here we are, and it feels harder than it was in 2012. But maybe it’s because now, with my baby, life feels that much more precious and that much more like it needs to be protected.
The quote above seemed perfect for this cycle and all it’s players; exploring the truth of living on this evolving planet as we discover our own flaws, mortality, weakness, as our culture undergoes it’s shamanic death whose outcome is so unknown, and yet, we have choice, always choice, of how to live in this world. We can choose darkness, fear, anger, competition.. or we choose light, harmony, peace, balance.
This is a time, and a month, of karmic cleansing and reckoning, but if you are living on the authentic path and open to change, it can be a time of great healing and abundance. You just have to choose… to lean into the light… whatever that means for you.
For me, it is daily gratitude, making sustainable choices and commitments. Surrounding myself with like minded people, educating myself, discovering, day by day, who I am and what really matters. To lean into the light, the light of the Goddess, even when it is eclipsed, is a great act of power right now. We will be challenged. We will have to deal with consequences. But even in all that, we can still lean, lean on each other, lean on spirit, lean on the land. Lean into the light, even when it cannot be seen, and we will be a part of this great turning, and the darkness will inevitably begin to fade.
So much love, light and blessings.
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Bekah Finch Turner is a Yoga teacher, shamanic practitioner and moon devotee. For more information on her work and writing please visit www.sacredwayyoga.com